Thank you for writing this. I too have a wound that, baring a direct miraculous act of God, will likely not heal until I (hopefully, by God's grace) reach heaven and have struggled with intimacy with Jesus for most of my life. So much so, that back in the late 90s, when the song "What a Friend I Found" by the band Delirious came on Christian radio, I would physically cringe at the line "I have felt your touch, more intimate than lovers".
During this Jubilee year, Our Lord has patiently been working a loot of change for the better in me. I was able to step away from addictive behaviors I had used for decades to numb the pain of my wounds and distract me from intimacy with God. Until I realized I was the only thing keeping Jesus from being close. I even got a mental image of Jesus standing in front of me as I had my hand on His chest and my elbow locked - making sure he stayed an arms length away from me. And He just stood their not forcing himself on me, but just patiently waiting for me to lower my arm. I am still working on lowering my arm. But man, I am glad I read this, because I can see ow how Satan has recently started to tempt me with those occultic things with Catholic trapings. As they would have let me have the appearance of a deeper faith while reinforcing the distance between myself and Jesus.
When I first moved up north, I was in such a dark place that I had to read several books about the occult just to get my bearings. I’m so glad not to be struggling with that type of darkness any more. I believe in power of spiritual deliverance from demons. God has been leading me toward full healing. Your words are really tapping into something. I think we all have to be wary of something that gives a feeling of trepidation, without letting the spirit of fear inside.
Thank you for writing this. I too have a wound that, baring a direct miraculous act of God, will likely not heal until I (hopefully, by God's grace) reach heaven and have struggled with intimacy with Jesus for most of my life. So much so, that back in the late 90s, when the song "What a Friend I Found" by the band Delirious came on Christian radio, I would physically cringe at the line "I have felt your touch, more intimate than lovers".
During this Jubilee year, Our Lord has patiently been working a loot of change for the better in me. I was able to step away from addictive behaviors I had used for decades to numb the pain of my wounds and distract me from intimacy with God. Until I realized I was the only thing keeping Jesus from being close. I even got a mental image of Jesus standing in front of me as I had my hand on His chest and my elbow locked - making sure he stayed an arms length away from me. And He just stood their not forcing himself on me, but just patiently waiting for me to lower my arm. I am still working on lowering my arm. But man, I am glad I read this, because I can see ow how Satan has recently started to tempt me with those occultic things with Catholic trapings. As they would have let me have the appearance of a deeper faith while reinforcing the distance between myself and Jesus.
So again, Thank you.
When I first moved up north, I was in such a dark place that I had to read several books about the occult just to get my bearings. I’m so glad not to be struggling with that type of darkness any more. I believe in power of spiritual deliverance from demons. God has been leading me toward full healing. Your words are really tapping into something. I think we all have to be wary of something that gives a feeling of trepidation, without letting the spirit of fear inside.